Stubborn Self Reliance

I get so stubborn thinking I can take care of everything myself, even when things happen that are out of my control. I know I have been taught to turn to God to ask for his help, yet I am so stubborn, I guess part of me thinks that it won't help or that I need to use my energy worrying about it instead of asking for help, like my worrying is going to get me anywhere, I know that I have been this way for sometime now, and yet I still want to be it. I will probably have to learn in a very hard way to rely on my Heavenly Father and remember him, and it will probably hurt really bad, hopefully I can learn my lessons before the big lesson comes. Why is it that I am so stubborn in my nature, that I believe that I can do things myself, I know my parents were very good at teaching self reliance, perhaps I took that too literally when it came to my spirituality or perhaps, I rely on God just enough, and really do need to continue to help myself, I have some pretty conflicting thoughts on the subject if you haven't noticed. But truly I believe that I don't remember often enough, and if I would remember more, than I would see that the Lord is ready and willing and waiting for me to turn to him and seek his guidance.